I have no one and that’s okay.
I have no one to talk to, no one I can tell absolutely everyone to. I don’t fully trust anyone enough. Not even my best friends. I am going insane, and no one notices or cares enough to help me. It sucks, it truly does. I’ve been replaced by my so called “best friend”, who didn’t even remember to say happy birthday to me. I’ve lost hope in so much people, I’ve given certain people so many chances to show change that they are worth it. But, they proved me wrong. I don’t even care, that’s the sad part. I don’t even care if I lose a friend, I don’t even care enough to fix it. Most of them are my fault cause I push people away. This is the time where I crave Chicago…or a trip to the beach or anywhere I can just think. If only I didn’t live in Tampa, there is no place here I can be by myself and not be around people. I need to relax. I need to be out of school. I need to get away from everyone. I need hope. Because, if I don’t I will lose myself. Right now, I have no idea who I am anymore, this, this is not me.
(Source: may-13th)
